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You can find her on instagram at @motherhoodinsideout_ https://www.instagram.com/motherhoodinsideout_/?hl=en
Her page is full of affirmations and prompts as she shares her journey with motherhood.
Read on to find out how she overcame her battle with Postpartum depression.
Nothing can truly prepare you for the beast that is Postpartum Depression (PPD). It was one of the most brutal battles I've ever faced, nearly consuming me.
Yet, through an unconventional approach—cold showers—I found a way to reclaim my mental health and rediscover hope.
PPD is a common yet often overwhelming condition affecting one in ten women within the first year after giving birth. For me, it began as a persistent cloud of sadness and low mood, making it difficult to find joy, even in moments that should have been filled with happiness. Most terrifying were the intrusive, frightening thoughts—thoughts I never imagined I would have.
My PPD Diagnosis
I remember my six-week postnatal check-up vividly. Alone and anxious, I arrived at my GP’s office. As I waited for my turn, I hoped for some relief. When I finally sat with the doctor, my emotions overwhelmed me as we discussed my mental health. I was not okay!
Before I could process the questions, he asked, my eyes welled up, and a river of tears flowed.
Even though the doctor was there to help, I was reluctant to be fully candid. Despite his professionalism, he was still a stranger who didn’t know me personally. I feared he might misinterpret my words and feelings. My answers, however, clearly indicated my struggle.
I was cloaked with shame, guilt, and fear—fear of the unknown, fear of what would happen. No statistic or reassurance could comfort me. I didn’t want to be part of the "common PPD group." I felt great apprehension about what intervention would take place for me and, most importantly, for my baby.
It became acutely apparent from our conversation that I was suffering mentally. I was prescribed antidepressants, referred for counselling, and assigned to weekly psychotherapy sessions. I went on walks and talked to friends and family, but nothing seemed to release the unrelenting grip of PPD.
I had contemplated taking medication, but I knew deep down that a mental shift was needed—a transformation of my mind. I resolved to keep trying alternative methods, and if all else failed, I would take the prescribed medication.
Could Cold Showers Be the Answer?
Extreme circumstances call for extreme measures. While cold-water therapy might seem drastic to some, living with PPD was far more extreme for me. I was exhausted by my own thoughts and feelings.
I have had bouts of depression in the past, but this time felt different. I was a first-time mother navigating through an identity crisis and adjusting to life as I knew it. I was ruminating—missing my old life, berating myself for mistakes, and wishing things could be different. It was a recipe for disaster.
The cold and I have never been great acquaintances. The thought of cold showers alone filled me with trepidation. Never did I imagine cold showers would be my answered prayer in overcoming what felt like crippling PPD.
I somehow felt led to try cold showers, and in true Nikky style, I dove into research and discovered Wim Hof. Known as the "Ice Man," Wim Hof has popularised a method combining cold exposure and deep breathing to enhance mental and physical health.
His method is supported by research showing that cold exposure can increase endorphin levels, reduce inflammation, and improve mood and mental clarity.
After watching many testimonials of people who found relief and empowerment through cold showers, I became convinced I was on the right path
To say cold showers have transformed my mental health is an understatement. The growth I've experienced has been remarkable. In full transparency, I've missed a few days—either from not showering or out of pure resistance.
After seven months, cold showers have become a staple in my routine. Here’s what I’ve learned:
Belief in Yourself: You can achieve anything if you believe in yourself.
Mind as Ally or Enemy: Your mind can be your greatest asset or obstacle.
Embrace Discomfort: The rewards of pushing through discomfort far outweigh the pain.
Progress is Progress: Small steps are still progress.
Discipline is Key: Consistency in facing challenges builds strength and resilience.
Although my daily cold showers have pulled me out of the deepest trenches of PPD and are no longer necessary, they remain an integral part of my morning routine for two reasons:
My theme for the year is discipline, so it’s essential to keep exercising that muscle.
Cold showers serve as my daily reminder that I can do hard things.
Final Thoughts
Cold showers have become a cornerstone of my daily routine, significantly benefiting my mental and physical well-being. However, they may not be suitable for everyone, particularly those with certain medical conditions.
Everyone’s journey with PPD is unique. While cold showers worked for me, finding a method that resonates with you is essential. Listen to your body and prioritise your well-being.
As mothers, we possess incredible strength and resilience, often summoning our inner Goliath to overcome the most challenging battles. We somehow find the strength to move mountains for our children and achieve the impossible when it matters most. I am profoundly grateful that I’ve moved my mountain and can now fully embrace the joys of motherhood, raising the most amazing little girl—my firecracker.
If you are a mother experiencing PPD, please remember that you are not alone, and you don’t have to suffer in silence. Your baby needs you; you have the strength to navigate this journey and find the support you need.
With love,
Niks
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